Talk to your loved ones if you are suffering from anxiety or depression. If you don’t have someone that you trust in your life, talk to me. It takes courage, but can go a long way! I talked to my mom shortly after publishing my first post and she was so saddened that she didn’t know more about what I was going through at that time. I could have saved myself a lot of unhappy moments but instead I hid it away like it was something to be ashamed of. You are not alone!
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This is such an amazing writing about insomnia…. Insomnia: To Pursue Sleep So Hard You Become Invigorated By the Chase — Longreads.
Insomnia is not just a state of sleeplessness, a matter of negatives. It involves the active pursuit of sleep. It is a state of longing.
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Poem/ flow write/panic attack
I wrote these a few months ago. Im not sure what it is but I thought I would share it.
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My heart beats like a panic
Though I am happy and alive
Almost too much life feels close to dying
Living the high life, the fast life, the sleepless and the vast life
Brining me closer to the panic
My heart beats; rapid, irregular, hard within my chest
forgetting to breath…..breathing too deep
life is too steep for me to climb up.
Relaxing when I look at you, when you hold me and walk with me
Cool to the touch and warm to hold
calming me down, my heart unfolds.
The It
Something brings me to that place
where my heart bubbles into my throat,
where breath becomes deep in effort and shallow in my stomach and chest.
Good?
Bad?
Whose to say….?
It is me, so I suppose its neither but something to unfold.
Tears, joy, anger, love, loss, future, past, beauty, death, life, good enough? too good?
Let IT out!
Let IT Go!
Hold IT,
Recognize IT,
Release IT!
2 weeks without my anxiety herbs
Today marks the 2 week mark without taking my anxiety supplement called Zen. It works amazingly in my opinion, but I was relying on it too much.
I ran out 2 weeks ago and hadn’t ordered a new bottle. I received my bottle a week ago and haven’t opened it. So far its been a little bit of a bumpy ride but is challenging me to use my breathing techniques, exercise, and eat properly as well as feel what is giving me anxiety in my current life.
Oh what a world we live in.
I don’t know where to begin right now. …. I just watched a TV show that was exciting and interesting. It was sent in the 1800s and was about war famine and love. My thoughts were that my life is so different from the TV show. I know nothing of war and nothing a famine but I know a lot about love. After the TV show I got on Facebook, and I scrolled through stories, real life things that are happening right now. People displaced and killed from a fire only a few hours away from here. I saw another post about Venezuelans fleeing to Brazil to find a better life. The picture in detected families sleeping in Hammocks crowded together and the concrete building. I saw another interview of a child refugee from the Congo. I realized that life has not changed much at all since then. Will there always be people suffering? Will there always be war? What makes it all worth it? Love makes it all worth it. If you were feeling worried or anxious about all of the terrible things happening in the world, take time to think about those you love. There might always be a storm Somewhere around you but the more we focus on the love and light the better we will get through. Love and light be our guides.
My life with Anxiety 