Our journey to Arizona

Some might call it a vacation and I call it a journey. A vacation with little children is not always that much of a vacation. When I think of the word vacation, I think of relaxation, lots of rest, reading my book uninterrupted, drinking cocktails on a beach and lying in a hammock. None of that has been true since having children. I’m not unhappy about that, though I would love it to happen again! Thinking of travel and vacation as a journey is helpful for me to enjoy myself to the maximum capacity. It’s just another day in life as a parent. I’ve heard it called parenting elsewhere, and I love it. Though it’s filled with challenges sometimes and often exhausting, I like the adventure and the problem solving that comes with it. In the next couple paragraphs, I will put my travel tips for journeys with kids.

This was one of the first times we have flown with both kids. My son is two, and my daughter is five. My husband is quite an anxious flyer, so I knew it was going to be on me to manage the kids a bit more. My first problem to solve was, how do I keep my two year-old engaged on the flights. Typically, we don’t do much screen time and I don’t even own an iPad. So I needed to pack a small bag of things that would keep both kids entertained. The things that I brought that worked the best for my two-year-old, was a popper toy, stickers, and tiny snacks that took a longer time to eat. My five year old was pretty engaged with drawing and playing a drawing game with her dad.
The second flight we took was a bigger plane that had screens, and it was magical! I fully understand why people bring an iPad on flights to keep their kids engaged! I even got to watch part of a movie! So my travel tip number one is let your kids watch screens! There is a time and a place for everything 🙂

Travel tip #2 Any where you go, bring snacks for the whole family and make sure to eat a solid meal before or bring one with you on a day of travel.
There is nothing worse than a family of hangry people traveling together all day. You never know what you’re going to run into while traveling, and sometimes the food that you want or the food that you can eat is hard to come by. Though it takes a lot of extra preparation and room in your bags I have always found it 100% worth it.
When we landed in Phoenix, it was already bedtime for the kids, and everybody was hungry. Instead of having to navigate the city with hungry kids, we made a meal of peanut butter bars, chips, and applesauce packets. It wasn’t the meal I wanted, but it filled us all up so we could get a good nights sleep.

Our first hotel in Phoenix, on the way in, was not near the airport. This was a mistake! Instead of taking a quick shuttle to the hotel, we had to pick up a car, and figure out where we were going and then drive 20 min. Next time we travel, I will make sure our hotel is right next to the airport if we’re getting in at night.

In the morning, we quickly navigated ourselves out of Phoenix, as we are not city people! We drove to Sedona on the way such a Rad place to stop and take a walk, and have a history lesson for my five-year-old that is homeschooled. We didn’t plan this, but we happened upon it and it was awesome. It’s called the Montezuma Castle National Monument.
https://www.sedona.net/cliff-dwellings

After a lovely stop at the castle and a snack of Fry bread from a local pop up, we made our way to Sedona. My little dude just woke up from a nap, so I’ll tell you about Sedona next post! That’s all for now 🙂

It’s been a while

well, it’s been a long time since I wrote anything at all, let alone publicly, but here I go! Since I last wrote on this blog, a lot has changed in my life. I am now a mama of 2 sweet little beings, I am a stay at home mom, and I homeschool my almost 6 year old. In my previous posts I was sharing about my journey with anxiety, and though that is still a part of me, I now will be sharing about my journeys with my little ones. I will be sharing both inward journeys as a mother and a wife and about physical journeys we have taken! I’m looking forward to a new chapter in my journey as a writer 🙂

A bumpy flight.

Yesterday I met someone that ended up helping me through a very bumpy flight. At one point I was taking my anxiety tincture and he was sitting next to me And asked what I was taking. Told him it was my rose and Howthorn tincture and that helps keep me calm and happy. He said to me “I hear deep breathing helps too.” I laughed and said “sometimes I need a little help taking a deep breath.” Then proceeded to tell me about how in tough situations it’s hard for people to remember to breathe sometimes and that using a certain technique helps. Breath in for four seconds hold it in for four seconds and breathe out for four seconds. Do this cycle until you feel yourself able to think and calm down. Soon we proceeded to get on our flight. Last 20 minutes were bumpy and felt scary in my Opinion. I used his advice And did my four breathing as I will call it from now on. It definitely helped! That I didn’t take my fear away it allowed me to stay calmer and focused.

Thank you Stranger!

I am Being

Sea wind sweeps against my face

I feel my feet bare on the cold wet ground.

Warmed by the sun wrapped around my back,

I am being

Meditating? No.

I am being

Being with people that bring joy

Being amongst nature that grounds and calms the body

Being in a moment that you would choose to last forever if you could

Being is something that happens when you don’t try.

Be grateful for being.

It is fleeting yet carries you through the moments when things are happening.

Why are emotions so raw?

Do you ever have so many emotions that you feel like your about to burst, but the emotions are coming from something so simple? I’ve always been an emotional being, crying, laughing, jumping for joy, crippled in sadness. Why, I wonder do we tend to feel some emotions more than others? And why some of us feel things so strongly that we think something is wrong with us. Is it more about our brain chemistry or more about our surroundings? Or is it more about the path that the universe has set out for us?

When we experience our emotions whole heartily do we grow from them? Sometimes I feel that we do and sometimes I wonder because when I feel certain emotions I feel like I’m a so young…

Today I cried about the fact that I couldn’t brush my hair after a shower because it was so tangled and I was fed up with it being so tangled. I didn’t just shed a tear, I cried in full sobs, my body limp and my mind ready to give up, crawl into bed and sob all day. Now, I don’t really want people to know this about me. I am a happy joyful person and I want people to see me that way. But that is not all of me and I want anyone who feels alone in their emotions to know that though their emotions are uniquely theirs but they are not alone….

A poem from the moment.

Getting into the shower I step on the scale.

Trying to lose but I gained 2 more

Trying to wash off the feeling of failure

And wondering what makes our bodies do what they do

Getting out I try to comb my hair

The brush is stuck in tangles galore

I start from the bottom

Combing with care

But it doesn’t work and I want to just tare.

Tare it out, i brush harder

Tears well up and my heart pounds harder

I search for scissors, ready to cut

But none appear so I’m forced to fall apart

Wrapped in a towel I let out a sob, come out of the door and fall into it mothers arms

She gently holds me without judgement for some time

Then offers to help detangle my hair that’s intertwined

So lovely she is, to hold me and brush my hair at 31 years old.

I wonder if I will ever not need her when I get old.

Thank you for loving me and helping me still ❤️