Why are emotions so raw?

Do you ever have so many emotions that you feel like your about to burst, but the emotions are coming from something so simple? I’ve always been an emotional being, crying, laughing, jumping for joy, crippled in sadness. Why, I wonder do we tend to feel some emotions more than others? And why some of us feel things so strongly that we think something is wrong with us. Is it more about our brain chemistry or more about our surroundings? Or is it more about the path that the universe has set out for us?

When we experience our emotions whole heartily do we grow from them? Sometimes I feel that we do and sometimes I wonder because when I feel certain emotions I feel like I’m a so young…

Today I cried about the fact that I couldn’t brush my hair after a shower because it was so tangled and I was fed up with it being so tangled. I didn’t just shed a tear, I cried in full sobs, my body limp and my mind ready to give up, crawl into bed and sob all day. Now, I don’t really want people to know this about me. I am a happy joyful person and I want people to see me that way. But that is not all of me and I want anyone who feels alone in their emotions to know that though their emotions are uniquely theirs but they are not alone….

A poem from the moment.

Getting into the shower I step on the scale.

Trying to lose but I gained 2 more

Trying to wash off the feeling of failure

And wondering what makes our bodies do what they do

Getting out I try to comb my hair

The brush is stuck in tangles galore

I start from the bottom

Combing with care

But it doesn’t work and I want to just tare.

Tare it out, i brush harder

Tears well up and my heart pounds harder

I search for scissors, ready to cut

But none appear so I’m forced to fall apart

Wrapped in a towel I let out a sob, come out of the door and fall into it mothers arms

She gently holds me without judgement for some time

Then offers to help detangle my hair that’s intertwined

So lovely she is, to hold me and brush my hair at 31 years old.

I wonder if I will ever not need her when I get old.

Thank you for loving me and helping me still ❤️