I wrote these a few months ago. Im not sure what it is but I thought I would share it.
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My heart beats like a panic
Though I am happy and alive
Almost too much life feels close to dying
Living the high life, the fast life, the sleepless and the vast life
Brining me closer to the panic
My heart beats; rapid, irregular, hard within my chest
forgetting to breath…..breathing too deep
life is too steep for me to climb up.
Relaxing when I look at you, when you hold me and walk with me
Cool to the touch and warm to hold
calming me down, my heart unfolds.
The It
Something brings me to that place
where my heart bubbles into my throat,
where breath becomes deep in effort and shallow in my stomach and chest.
Good?
Bad?
Whose to say….?
It is me, so I suppose its neither but something to unfold.
Tears, joy, anger, love, loss, future, past, beauty, death, life, good enough? too good?
Let IT out!
Let IT Go!
Hold IT,
Recognize IT,
Release IT!
My life with Anxiety 